CSA Voices

NTU CSA Voices is a blog maintained by the 17th Exco. This is the place for you to voice out your ideas, suggestions, sharings, and everything for the growth of NTU CSA.

Saturday, December 30, 2006

!!!Merry Christmas!!!

Hey hey!!! 1st! Merry Christmas to all of you!
Tomorrow's the last day of the year already! Any new year resolutions yet?
Just wanna share with you all...
That day, when I was checking my results... As the usual, I'll be all shaky over while clicking on that "important" button~ The last sem, I totally don't have any confidence at all... Through out the holidays, I've been praying for my exams... I really hope that everything can go well for exams... Even before I clicked, I prayed, please... My exams RESULTS!!! ARRRGGGHHH!!!
Then I went blank for a moment before clicking... When I finally saw my results, not only I felt myself being relieved(though still shaky), I felt what I'd learnt in the retreat coming on true...

I went for the Tri-Varsity Retreat for the 1st time. Usually, I seldom go for retreats because I'm not a person who can meditate for a long time... Though, I got to know friends, felt warmth also... But never the feeling that GOD's always with me... Okiez... At times only... But after that 3 days... & my exam results, I feel that GOD hears my whatever troubles I have... I don't need to voice it out... Voicing it out only makes me sure that GOD's listening to me... But this time... That moment of blankness came to me that... God knows what I want! Though I cannot say my grades are good, but... HE'S THERE!!!

Believe in HIM!!!

Belated Merry Christmas & advanced Happy New Year!!!
Cya all soon looooO~~~~~~

Thursday, December 14, 2006

A little sharing on meditation...

Hey everyone. Hope everyone's enjoying their well-deserved break right about now. Anyway, I've decided to post a little sharing about my experience during a recent meditation session I had with my parish lectors ministry. It was a wonderfully peaceful experience and I thought I'd share it with you and introduce a new form of prayer that I've come to know of recently. Here goes:

meditation: deluge of thoughts

on tuesday, i had my monthly meditation session with the olps lectors. after a long day in school and hanging out with the freshies, so it was no surprise when i trudged into st mark's room at 8.20pm after cabbing down from town pretty darn tired. i even fell asleep in the cab just before i reached the church. even joe remarked that i was tired after the meditation was all done.

joe started with a few exercises, asking us to recall a person or persons who had given us love before and relive an experience in our minds. after that, we went into breathing exercises, where we regulated our diaphragmatic breathing in line with the word 'maranatha', which means 'the Lord has come'. surprisingly, it was quite an exertion, due to the variation of speeds to our breathing. my nostrils were burning and my chest felt noticeably strained, but otherwise i felt completely at ease and relaxed. what happened next is beyond me, but the feeling of it was extremely powerful and has been firmly etched in my mind.

joe then led us into a series of mental exercises. the strangest thing was that my head started to tilt up towards the ceiling, and at that moment, joe mentioned something along the line of the light of christ. and there, through the skin of my eyelids, was the light emanating from the ceiling lights. yet somehow, it felt brighter and whiter than one would expect. it felt like the light had completely penetrated and passed through my eyelids, and i became fixated on this light completely. i followed joe's instructions for a little while more, feeling the light run through my body and trying to view myself from outside my body before i lapsed into my own path. the strangest thing was that i could hear joe's voice, yet my consciousness was floating around and not deciphering what he was saying. i felt light and weightless, like i was floating on air, like a flower petal on a vast lake. i was fully awake, yet i was oblivious to my physical surroundings. my thoughts took on a natural state of flux and i just drifted between thoughts and memories, remembering none in particular but knowing i had visited a few regions of my mind. i felt energized as i moved from fluid thought to thought.

as the session drew to a close, i somehow managed to pick up joe talking about Christ, "who died on the cross out of love for us" as well as his instruction to slowly count to 10 and come out of the meditative state.

it felt like the whole thing lasted 5-10 minutes, but joe told us we had been like that for around 30 minutes.

considering i've fallen asleep on the past few attempts, this experience really had me excited. in a sense, i felt so awake, so aware of myself, yet i was asleep and oblivious to the world around me. thoughts just poured forth like a spring in a natural flow and fluidity. and it has me wanting to experience that calm once more.